While I watched this incredible performance, I experienced a clear deja vu moment. There are tons of explanations for how/why this happens, but that's not what drove me to write this down.
What drove me to write was the song he sang. I had not heard of the song before although I would only admit anonymously that I enjoy Garth Brooks.
Here are the lyrics:
Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
Shes lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart
If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That shes my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes
cause Ive lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where theres no second chance to tell her how I feel
These lyrics hits home for me in a very special way. Of course the words and feelings expressed are universal. But I live these words every day.
The thought of tomorrow never arriving for me is a reality. My life is rather delicate. On May 22, 2007 I nearly lost it. I am alive today but for how long? I'm 37, far from old for the average person. But I'm not average.
I want to tell her my true feelings, but if I do, I will lose her. There are no second chances, but I don't know if I will ever get my first.
